Up and Down

I wish I could straighten out my moods lately. Even though I know what's causing the roller coaster ride, there's no end in sight to that ridiculous situation - it's no-win and several of my closest friends agree. So today I spent hours on answers.com answering people's questions about their coat of arms. then I slept for 3 hours in the middle of the day. Then I ate.. more.. and then when Kobold finally came home, we went to Thunar for a minute, but bailed since he wasn't fighting and I really didn't give a shit. This whole not giving a shit and being in a hole of gross self-loathing is pretty fucking awful... I feel like I need something - a kick, a kiss, a proclamation of undying love, a job, a proclamation of hatred... anything at this point would be pretty fucking good.